Sky Sports commentator and former darts player Wayne Mardle has posted an emotional video highlighting his ongoing grief.
Mardle, 52, played in the Professional Darts Corporation (PDC) and the British Darts Organisation (BDO) during his career.
Nicknamed 'Hawaii 501', Mardle's trophy cabinet includes the Dutch Open, Denmark Open and the British Teenage Open.
He also finished as the runner-up in three PDC majors, losing all three finals to darts legend Phil Taylor.
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After retiring from playing, Mardle moved into punditry and commentary and is a major part of Sky Sports' coverage.
Back in December 2024, Mardle revealed that his wife of 22 years, Donna, had passed away after a short illness.
Mardle took time away from his media duties before returning in February 2025.
This week, Mardle took to the social media platform TikTok to openly speak about how he has dealt with grief.
He said: "This is a first for me, I'm having one of those days. This is the first of another genre of TikTok for me, I think you may even call it 'GriefTok' nowadays.
"Normally it is a bit of golf and a bit of darts. My wife Donna died on December 11, 2024, so about 430 odd days ago, I used to count the days, call that progress, call it what you like. It doesn't feel like progress, it is absolutely brutal. The reason I'm doing this is, while it is brutal, I am still here and all you can do is keep trying, right, keep trying.
"It is a process, so I'm told and you go through stages. You don't go through stages. You go through phases, there's a phase and then there's another phase. Before you know it that phase is returning so the stage or phase you think is going to pass, it doesn't work that way."
Mardle continued: "So however you're feeling is how you're feeling, don't worry about it and when I say that I literally mean deal with it how you feel you want to deal with it, there's no right or wrong here. I used to literally go everyday to Donna's graveside. I haven't been there for the past... well, since Christmas Day and it is now February 21.
"I don't feel guilty, I just feel like I can't do it because it beats me, beats me every time I go over there, you have a millisecond off of forgetting, right, that's about it. But I just want to tell you all, that those who are going through similar, don't overthink it, don't double bluff yourself, just get on with it how you think is right and the people who question you are not your friends, they're not your family, they have a perception of grief, it's incorrect.
"It's just brutal, it really is brutal but all I'm saying to all of you is, if I can help one person, I'm not even helping myself here, I don't know what I'm doing, just do it how you want to do it, don't overthink it, please don't. I hope tomorrow is better than today."
Topics: Darts
Marcus Chan